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I want this so much that I can’t wait!

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Patior, having to do with suffering and endurance, is the Latin root for patience and so it is for passion. It’s strange how the thing for which we are most passionate is often the thing for which we are least patient. Two sides of the same coin? Or two steps in the process? I’m not too sure. You might think to stifle your passion is the means to have patience because then you could wait more happily. But would you really be happy? I think this practice (and it is a practice) leads quickly to apathy – yet another derivative of patior. Or, you might think to gain instant gratification to your passion is best. But we all know this track has nothing to do with patience whatsoever. In this way, patience remains a one-celled organism. No, what we want is to feed our passion and to grow it up big and strong. We want to care deeply for that thing. It’s in our nature.

Most of us would suffer much harm, be it spiritual, emotional, or physical pain, even die for some thing. And this is passion. It is also patience for we will sacrifice time, money, and energy, in order to wait for it. Whatever it is that I want so much had better be worth it, otherwise I will despise it and will lose any notion of patience. In truth, if you really cannot wait for it, then you must not really care or you must not comprehend its supreme value. You could say it’s a matter of integrity. Your passion is what you say you will stop at nothing to attain. Your patience is what you actually do to attain it. Just as belief equals action, so passion equals patience. How then will we act? How will we live? According to the measure of passion we have for it. How can a mother endure the pain of childbirth? It’s the love she has for her child. How can a suicide bomber commit an act of terror? Though brainwashed and heinous, it’s passionate belief.

Patience is a virtue, but it is only as virtuous as your passion for a thing. Take care, lest your passion be cheap or evil. But, if your passion is good and true, your belief glorious, be patient, or in other words, work with all your energy to see it through as if you can’t wait. Your waiting will not be worthless nor calm and collected; it will, however, be worthwhile and full of passion – blood, sweat, and tears. This is patience – your passion lived out moment by moment. Your patience is your passion. Now, go spend yourself for something truly noble.


“Shake the world again.”

To eat, to breathe
to beget
Is this all there is
Chance configuration of atom against atom
I cannot believe it.
Come, Christian Triune God who lives,
Here am I
Shake the world again.
-Francis Schaeffer

Quotes on the Inner Ring

Lewis’ “inner ring” is so telling of how we think in relation to others, so below are some more quotes from him on the efforts of elitists and the elusive inner workings of the upper echelon of society.

“Until you conquer the fear of being an outsider, an outsider you will remain.” (from previous post)

“whether you have talked to fellow members of the Ring in the presence of outsiders simply in order that the outsiders might envy; whether the means whereby, in your days of probation, you propitiated the Inner Ring, were always wholly admirable.”

“In the whole of your life as you now remember it, has the desire to be on the right side of that invisible line ever prompted you to any act or word on which, in the cold small hours of a wakeful night, you can look back with satisfaction?”

“The lust for the esoteric, the longing to be inside, take many forms which are not easily recognizable as Ambition. We hope, no doubt, for tangible profits from every Inner Ring we penetrate: power, money, liberty to break rules, avoidance of routine duties, evasion of discipline.”

“this desire is one of the great permanent main-springs of human action.”

“Unless you take measures to prevent it, this desire is going to be one of the chief motives of your life, from the first day on which you enter your profession until the day when you are too old to care.”

“If you do nothing about it, if you drift with the stream, you will in fact be an ‘inner ringer.’”

“The quest of the Inner Ring will break your hearts unless you break it.”

“And if in your spare time you consort simply with the people you like, you will again find that you have come unawares to a real inside: that you are indeed snug and safe at the center of something which, seen from without, would look exactly like an Inner Ring.”


Lewis and the Inner Ring

C. S. Lewis ponders a pervasive challenge which plagues humanity: elitism. The “inner ring” is the circle of people who by direct or indirect means exclude others. The others are the “outsiders”. These people, which includes every one in respect to every ring, strive their whole life jumping through hoops for the more verdant pastures. How shall we do otherwise? Lewis quips, “Until you conquer the fear of being an outsider, an outsider you will remain.”


Many Rooms

The Half Doz (my affectionate nomenclature for my family) are in a transition period right now, what with moving and looking for a job. All this talk of “temporary” and “wait-and-see” has really got me to thinking about all of life. You know, man’s life is a vapor, the flower appears for a moment and fades away. Truly, we are passing through as aliens in a strange land. This sin-stained world is not our home, so don’t get too comfy. We are headed to an eternal home. What will it be like, I wonder? One thing’s for sure: we will be at home. There will be plenty of space (big deal for us Baylors), no more tears/sadness, and sin and death will be gone. There will be a New Heaven, a New Earth and a New Jerusalem: sounds to me like Jesus is preparing a place for us that’s bigger, better and cooler than all the good our current earth and sky have to offer. We’ll have new bodies, which will be good for some of us ;). More than all of this, we’ll be in the presence of the One who breathes life into our feeble bodies. We’ll be surrounded by the Father’s satisfaction; it will be written all over his ever-present face because our sin was written all over his Son’s body on the cross. Life will make sense. Peace will reign. Can’t wait!